Self Treatment days 3 & 4: The Test

Proclamation: I did not hide
Confession: I did not go through one box in 2 days

WoW! These last 2 days have been something.
Day 3 happened to fall on Black Friday. Being that I had made a committment to myself and the fact that I had no disposable income to spend catching all the black Friday sales, I had no plans to join the after Thanksgivng crowds. Then, my stepmother asked if I wanted to go shopping with her. My reply, "No, I have no money to spend". I thought for a second not to share my disorder with the newest member of our family but I remembered that I promised not to hide so... when she said, "You won't have to worry about that", then I said, "Okay but it won't be a fun day since I have to seriously consider if I need an item before it can enter into my house" and then I explained further about my obsessive complusive disorder to hoard things I don't necessarily need. I then commissioned her to hold me accountable to the items I was considering. She agreed.

I think I did pretty well. At one store I found a great deal, $5.99, on a fun game to play but I put it back. Then I saw a butterfly to hang on the wall, I really wanted it and it would have been so easy to get since she didn't give us any boundaries as far as purchases but..... I resisted.

My 2 excuses, which to me seem valid are... IT WAS BLACK FRIDAY! who cleans out boxes on such a great day to be out on the town? And I wasn't driving my self so I was at the mercy of another and we didn't get home until 1 a.m. Add to that the fact that I became soooo sick, sicker than I've ever been in my life while we were at the movies and all the way home, which was an hour drive with a bag over my mouth. Needless to say, when I got home I was thinking only of sleep and not of cleaning out a box.

Day 4: Not so much of a valid excuse. I had a job to do in the morning/afternoon hours and then I took a nap for waaaay to long. But I guess tossing your cookies is a draining event soo... I slept. When I awoke, I did not clean out a box. Today, I was able to hold food down though.

Is tomorrow to late to actually commit to my committment to self treatment?
I think not when you consider I have 361 days left to get it right.
I will be victorious!!!!

Thank you for your continued thoughts of success toward my efforts.